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aku & dia

Hari tu(080710) aku jumpa dia...xda niat pown nak jumpa..kebetulan aku dpt MC..then lepas settle sume urusan kt hospital...aku pon gerak g KL...agak lama gak menunggu sbb dorg dr Gombak g Bangi bru smpai KL...xperlah...besiap ala kadar jer..mcm xde feel sgt nak jumpa...tp sbb ne je ms yg ade utk aku yg serba serbi bz ne...so amek kesempatan ne je la...

Sblm aku g trun KL juz send him a short msg jer...

"jumpa kt KL sentral kul 3"

dia pown balas..

"ok..jap lagi..tgh otw..aku g ngn kazen"

Sebenarnya aku tak kisah pown dia bawa kazen dia..yerlah dia pon ckp..xnak jumpa berdua...leh dtgkan fitnah...xpe..aku leh trime...dah ustaz ckp mcm tu kan..xkan nak membantah satgi panjg lak khutbah dia kat aku...lgpun aku bkn xphm lgsung bab2 agama ni..no matter la syg..

Disebabkan aku dtg awl..agak puas gak aku round Kl Central...padahal xde mende pown..mjur ada asia tour exhibition ker aper kat tgkat 2..round punya round..perut aku dah buat irama rock dah...aku g mkn...xkuasa nak tggu..ne panggilan perut dah smpai seru ne...lgpun aku xbekfes no wonder la perut aku bunyi semacam jer..

Aku dah abes mkn bru dpt msg dr dia...

"dah smpai ne..syg ktne??..."

Tup..sentap dada aku..ntah knpa bila dia ckp dia dh smpai, jntung aku mcm nak terkeluar jer...ya Allah bedebarnya...siyes...ntah knp ms tu bru aku rasa feel dia dah mkin hmpir ngn aku...then aku nmpak dia...bju merah..pap!! sentap lgik..aku pon bju merah gak...xrancang erk...instinct kuat kowt..aura punyer pasal lah ne leh lak pkai bju kaler sama...then dia msuk...aku nmpk kazen dia gak...dia trun KL ne pown semata2 nk jmpa kazen dia bru blik dr Moscow...klu x..mmg xde hrpn nak jumpa dia...

Then...sembang..sembang n sembang...x sembang ape pown coz ader kazen dier..n aku pown sedikit termalu2 kat kazen dia..sbb mmg xpenah jumpa..so x comfortable sgt ms tu...sembg pasal keja...study aku..dlm 40 min je jumpa..pastu dorg nak gerak dah..aku pon nak blik awal...mlm tu ada kelas...xperla..kitaorg sm g beli tiket...

Dlm ms tu sempat lagi aku nak membanding2 dia dan c dia..klu c dia dia xkan biar aku g beli tket sndri..dia akn teman aku n 4 sure dia yg beli utk aku...then dia akn tgok smpai kitaorg xleh memandang satu sm len..tp itu kan c dia..mmg jauh beza ngn dia..dia juz ckp kol yer bila dah smpai..itu pon kira aku bersyukur2 sgt2 yg amat dia leh ckp mcm tu...drpd dia xckp lgsung..

Tp dia mmg aku dah taw..dia mmg xpndai nak romantik2 sgala ne..bkn jenis dia..tp ada masa2 yg kita xkan expect dia akan treat kita dgn romantik dan ms tulah aku rs mcm atas awan jer..melayang aku..tp nak tggu saat tu mmg agak rare la...mcm suprise jer bila la ms dia akan treat mcm tu lg...

Ms otw nak blik uma...i got a msg from him...

"So mcm mn??aku okey x??"

Sebenarnya xexpect pown dia nak anta msg cmtu...ms td xkeluar pown ayat ne...dlm msg aktif lak..rase mcm becinta time muda2 lak...malu2 ty ada..wah...over sgt..then kitaorg berbls2 msg..for a few minutes rse mcm berbaloi gak jumpa dia ne..ada gak la terselit rasa tu drpd xde langsung kan...then dia tnya bila nak jumpa lagik...aku senyap jer..mls nak ckp apa2...pastu dia pown ckp..kita jumpa time kahwin jer la..

Kahwin???heeee....bkn dlm ms terdekat la nmpknya kan...sekurang2kurangya ayat kahwin tu xkluar dr mulut aku...tp mulut c dia...ikut suka engkau la..yg msuk meminang ko...bkn aku..so pandai2la yer...

Walau apa2 pown aku serah kan pd takdir n jodoh...klu Allah kata dia yg terbaik utk aku...maka berdoa jer la utk dipermudahkan ke arah itu...xoxo

i waNt u to KnoW

Last nite...i discover sumthing...he try to be honest with me..i know his intention..and i know it's not sumthing was easy to confess..he told me dat he try to think for the sake of my happiness,my future and i appreciate his braveness, that why i try my best to accept and not to cry eventhough my heart just like totally broken coz of the fact.

I hate that!!! actually after dat, i was silence for a while... speechless... i was thinking what i'm supposed to do???but i know it's not the right way if i try to punish or leave him...i don't wanna be cruel..he told that he loves me and dats why he told me the truth..he almost cry last nite..he know the consequence of his action just like he try to turn off my feeling towards him and he absolutely ready for that..he realize the fact that he really2 disappointed me. He asked me to leave him!!He said that he was the hopeless man and not suitable for me...

Notes for him-syg, to choose u or not..it's not my option..Let Allah do that for us..but what is important now,i want you to lived in the right path...praise Allah to give you a strength to changed..it's not to be late for you..you still have your own time...i still give you a time,don't make a decision for me...i don't like that..and i thing..don't underestimate yourself..nobody's perfect...everyone have a weakness and also the kindness to neutralize a human being..syg,,in life the most important one it's not to make a decision but to understand the decision that you have been made..

p.s : i will stay here waiting and pray for you and for him sake...

Dunno Why!!

still ask myself why i do dat...ntah rs mcm empty sgt2..lately ne..mybe coz of frustration..mmg pown dgn keadaan dri ak yg agk kurg menentu dan SPH yg tgh melnda dri ini..so no wonder la why i acting weird recently..utk julung2 kalinya 'i take off all my rings' dunno why..rase mcm xperla..mls nak pkai..cincin yg abh bg pown aku take off..eermmmmm byk mksud sbnrnya..huhuhu...semacam ak xnak komitmen dlm ms terdekat ini dan i wanna feel free at least for a several times..i need a time for myself to think about the relationship and whatsoever related to that kind of thing. I proudly saying dat..i'm single!!yes definitely single again!!

d reason why i'm taking off all my rings juz an expression to showing dat i not ready into 'it' and waiting for the moments dat the man for my destiny to put the ring back for me..even it's juz like a dreams but the reality i'm dreamy..dat's the way i called 'life' for myself...juz be the way u are..xoxo

Hey LadiEs

"A woman uses her intelligence to find reasons to support her intuition"