aku & dia

Hari tu(080710) aku jumpa dia...xda niat pown nak jumpa..kebetulan aku dpt MC..then lepas settle sume urusan kt hospital...aku pon gerak g KL...agak lama gak menunggu sbb dorg dr Gombak g Bangi bru smpai KL...xperlah...besiap ala kadar jer..mcm xde feel sgt nak jumpa...tp sbb ne je ms yg ade utk aku yg serba serbi bz ne...so amek kesempatan ne je la...

Sblm aku g trun KL juz send him a short msg jer...

"jumpa kt KL sentral kul 3"

dia pown balas..

"ok..jap lagi..tgh otw..aku g ngn kazen"

Sebenarnya aku tak kisah pown dia bawa kazen dia..yerlah dia pon ckp..xnak jumpa berdua...leh dtgkan fitnah...xpe..aku leh trime...dah ustaz ckp mcm tu kan..xkan nak membantah satgi panjg lak khutbah dia kat aku...lgpun aku bkn xphm lgsung bab2 agama ni..no matter la syg..

Disebabkan aku dtg awl..agak puas gak aku round Kl Central...padahal xde mende pown..mjur ada asia tour exhibition ker aper kat tgkat 2..round punya round..perut aku dah buat irama rock dah...aku g mkn...xkuasa nak tggu..ne panggilan perut dah smpai seru ne...lgpun aku xbekfes no wonder la perut aku bunyi semacam jer..

Aku dah abes mkn bru dpt msg dr dia...

"dah smpai ne..syg ktne??..."

Tup..sentap dada aku..ntah knpa bila dia ckp dia dh smpai, jntung aku mcm nak terkeluar jer...ya Allah bedebarnya...siyes...ntah knp ms tu bru aku rasa feel dia dah mkin hmpir ngn aku...then aku nmpak dia...bju merah..pap!! sentap lgik..aku pon bju merah gak...xrancang erk...instinct kuat kowt..aura punyer pasal lah ne leh lak pkai bju kaler sama...then dia msuk...aku nmpk kazen dia gak...dia trun KL ne pown semata2 nk jmpa kazen dia bru blik dr Moscow...klu x..mmg xde hrpn nak jumpa dia...

Then...sembang..sembang n sembang...x sembang ape pown coz ader kazen dier..n aku pown sedikit termalu2 kat kazen dia..sbb mmg xpenah jumpa..so x comfortable sgt ms tu...sembg pasal keja...study aku..dlm 40 min je jumpa..pastu dorg nak gerak dah..aku pon nak blik awal...mlm tu ada kelas...xperla..kitaorg sm g beli tiket...

Dlm ms tu sempat lagi aku nak membanding2 dia dan c dia..klu c dia dia xkan biar aku g beli tket sndri..dia akn teman aku n 4 sure dia yg beli utk aku...then dia akn tgok smpai kitaorg xleh memandang satu sm len..tp itu kan c dia..mmg jauh beza ngn dia..dia juz ckp kol yer bila dah smpai..itu pon kira aku bersyukur2 sgt2 yg amat dia leh ckp mcm tu...drpd dia xckp lgsung..

Tp dia mmg aku dah taw..dia mmg xpndai nak romantik2 sgala ne..bkn jenis dia..tp ada masa2 yg kita xkan expect dia akan treat kita dgn romantik dan ms tulah aku rs mcm atas awan jer..melayang aku..tp nak tggu saat tu mmg agak rare la...mcm suprise jer bila la ms dia akan treat mcm tu lg...

Ms otw nak blik uma...i got a msg from him...

"So mcm mn??aku okey x??"

Sebenarnya xexpect pown dia nak anta msg cmtu...ms td xkeluar pown ayat ne...dlm msg aktif lak..rase mcm becinta time muda2 lak...malu2 ty ada..wah...over sgt..then kitaorg berbls2 msg..for a few minutes rse mcm berbaloi gak jumpa dia ne..ada gak la terselit rasa tu drpd xde langsung kan...then dia tnya bila nak jumpa lagik...aku senyap jer..mls nak ckp apa2...pastu dia pown ckp..kita jumpa time kahwin jer la..

Kahwin???heeee....bkn dlm ms terdekat la nmpknya kan...sekurang2kurangya ayat kahwin tu xkluar dr mulut aku...tp mulut c dia...ikut suka engkau la..yg msuk meminang ko...bkn aku..so pandai2la yer...

Walau apa2 pown aku serah kan pd takdir n jodoh...klu Allah kata dia yg terbaik utk aku...maka berdoa jer la utk dipermudahkan ke arah itu...xoxo

anDainya...

Andainya...

aku boleh menarik segala janji..

aku ingin menariknya semula

kerana aku mula sedar aku tak layak menjanjikan apa-apa...

Andainya...

aku boleh memadamkan ingatan semua orang terhadapku

aku ingin sekali memadamkannya

kerana aku mula sedar aku hanya dunia yang membiak di hati mereka...

Andainya...

aku boleh mengundurkan waktu

aku tak mahu menyayangi sesiapa

kerana aku mula sedar

apabila terlalu menyayangi seseorang..aku hanya memikirkan

DIRINYA...

Torts & aku

Last nite aku g kelas tort for the 1st time..rase malas yg amat nak g kelas sbnrnya tp memikirkan yg Lecturer tu xsegan silu nak bg student fail aku g jer la..ingt senang ke nak cover CGPA bila dah fail...kena bertungkus lumus thp gaban bru leh cover..huhuhu...

For me EN.H(Lecturer Torts aku) xlah tegas mn tp yer aku akui he had been through d tough experience and becoz of that dia nak student2 dia menghargai every opportunity dat had been given. Kalu stakat amek PLK nak main2..saje2..better quit..u don't deserve it..wah..mmg aku sendri pown agak kagum ngan dia mcm mana dia leh survive to get his degree in law..dats why aku respect kat dia..dan of coz la xleh nak main sem ne..mau geget jari kaki aku klu dia bg fail..apa yg penting dia cakap ialah 'understanding' klu setakat nak goreng2 jwpn ko dlm exam baik xyah..coz torts is about the fact..so xde ceruk nak goreng2 la..it could be hangit and ur result also hangit teruk..

Semalam belajar ttg human conduct...wat the meaning of human conduct..HC means a behavior,what ur doing in every life,it could involving interaction either good result or negative result.Every cause(action) will give an effect(reaction) of that.

Positive action means you doing a things that are not supposed to do, the proactive and aggressive role.

Negative action means that something you did not do or not supposed to do at the first place,failing to do anything and failing to response. what ever action contains the word 'fail' or 'failure' tht is a negative action.

It is important to know the situation of (+) and (-) action because you can identified the cause of action (moment that you have a ground to sue)

When you have a combination of (-) & (+) action you have a strong case coz u have many points.

well..ini je yg notes yg sempat ku tulis2 dlm kertas yg aku pow dekat Naso...thnxx Na..aku g kelas smlm sehelai sepinggan jer..lenggang2 kangkung bawak beg merah...Fabulous giller mak g kelas..mjur ada pen sebatang dlm beg aku...ok stop there sblm ak melalut..

Cont. yg tadi..pg ne Cik MMKB explain dgn aku then bru ak clear..Cik MMKb ckp kat aku...(-) act ne bnda yg kita kena buat tp kita xbuat lagsung...kita ada breach of duty kat situ...bila (+)lak means kita buat,there is a movement but there is a careless also...e.g"cthnya seorg DR kena operate patient yg dah nazak...dia wat derk jer...xbuat operate langsung...then itu (-) coz xde move lagsung dr DR tu...klu (+) lak...dia operate patient tu tp dia tertinggal gunting dlm perut patient tu...then its (+) act...

ok bru aku clear..pdn muka aku smlm En.H tnya ada soaln ke tak aku wat muka toyer mcm phm jer kan..pdhal xclear..then sblm kelas abes smlm dlm ms 15 minutes dia minta kitorg bt situastion then cuba bg (+) n (-) action drpd situation dat we choose...gilerr arr..bkn aper...ms tu nmpk sgt mmg aku xclear...ketar2 tgn aku memerah otak cri situation..nak bt (-) act sng jer..ko letak jer ayat failure then it's (-) act..(+) tu mmg ak xtaw...dia soal sorg2 lak tu...tiba kat line aku jer..then dia ckp dah lewat so cont mggu dpn...dia ckp kira hutg mggu dpn byr hutg kat dia...bahaya ne..men tagih2 lak..heee...so strive for TORTS!!!!! wish me luck next week guys...XOXO

Sweet Like Cotton Candy

Gula-gula kapas itu mudah cair,

Sering lembut pada air,

Bila bersama Sang Kapas,rasa 'jubilant' sangat tinggi,

'Dia' selalu beri tenang kepada yang memegangnya,

Tapi mudah mengecewakan.

Gula-gula kapas manis tapi memudaratkan,

Selalu ada di pesta,

Dan bila tamatnya pesta,

Si gula-gula turut hilang...

Credits to Ms Pau Kelapa-thnx yer..it's goin to be the trademark poem for my blog dior...ermm tul gak kan...juz take your cotton candy when you feel need something to calm you...org xmkn cotton candy hari2 kan...heee...xoxo

sHariNG is CaRinG

My Dear....

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us

I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real

And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me

That's what I hope to give to you forever

I love you

I'll be seeing you.

i waNt u to KnoW

Last nite...i discover sumthing...he try to be honest with me..i know his intention..and i know it's not sumthing was easy to confess..he told me dat he try to think for the sake of my happiness,my future and i appreciate his braveness, that why i try my best to accept and not to cry eventhough my heart just like totally broken coz of the fact.

I hate that!!! actually after dat, i was silence for a while... speechless... i was thinking what i'm supposed to do???but i know it's not the right way if i try to punish or leave him...i don't wanna be cruel..he told that he loves me and dats why he told me the truth..he almost cry last nite..he know the consequence of his action just like he try to turn off my feeling towards him and he absolutely ready for that..he realize the fact that he really2 disappointed me. He asked me to leave him!!He said that he was the hopeless man and not suitable for me...

Notes for him-syg, to choose u or not..it's not my option..Let Allah do that for us..but what is important now,i want you to lived in the right path...praise Allah to give you a strength to changed..it's not to be late for you..you still have your own time...i still give you a time,don't make a decision for me...i don't like that..and i thing..don't underestimate yourself..nobody's perfect...everyone have a weakness and also the kindness to neutralize a human being..syg,,in life the most important one it's not to make a decision but to understand the decision that you have been made..

p.s : i will stay here waiting and pray for you and for him sake...

Dunno Why!!

still ask myself why i do dat...ntah rs mcm empty sgt2..lately ne..mybe coz of frustration..mmg pown dgn keadaan dri ak yg agk kurg menentu dan SPH yg tgh melnda dri ini..so no wonder la why i acting weird recently..utk julung2 kalinya 'i take off all my rings' dunno why..rase mcm xperla..mls nak pkai..cincin yg abh bg pown aku take off..eermmmmm byk mksud sbnrnya..huhuhu...semacam ak xnak komitmen dlm ms terdekat ini dan i wanna feel free at least for a several times..i need a time for myself to think about the relationship and whatsoever related to that kind of thing. I proudly saying dat..i'm single!!yes definitely single again!!

d reason why i'm taking off all my rings juz an expression to showing dat i not ready into 'it' and waiting for the moments dat the man for my destiny to put the ring back for me..even it's juz like a dreams but the reality i'm dreamy..dat's the way i called 'life' for myself...juz be the way u are..xoxo